Time changes everything, even you and I have changed
*STOP & STAY ♊ Germini Geek
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typical girl living in the love hates world. Hates what everyone loves, and loves what everyone hates
Once a braces geek, nerd geek and harcore geek. Lol MALAYSIAN.
I'm an arts geek who wants to get into triple economic class.
The ever best thing are bitches!
To be truth, I love mankind thingy, believe me or not.
Last but not least, I love travelling every single corner to find the real world, do whatever you think it is impossible.
-That's me
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You have to forgive to forget, and forget, to feel again
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“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional”
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 || 10:10 PM
Oh yea! start working now... as a part time sales . LOL Seriously, this's my first job. I did before at Pc fair. But that's just few days working. Seems like having fun more than working. hah!
Turn it back here, I'm so darn nervous for the first day. I don't know anyone there thus they know me cuz of my bro. He was the ex-staff at there. But, luckily the staff were quite friendly. We used to chat more than work. We seems like care no others include my super visor. But sometimes we still need to be serious.
I'd short memory now. Some of my schoolmates, juniors came to me * Hye, u'r my ex-schoolmate rite? u graduated rite??* and i'll show my weird look to them *yea! u're.........?* and they will feel like s.a.d * u don't recognise me?? is me!!! i'm_ _ _ _ _* for sure i'll give then the answer. *Ohhh... yea!!! hye...hye!! *
Even the same form student i also can recognise them. They came to me * hey... u tak kenal saya ke?? saya kelas 5**** ! Lol.... * gosh!!! I think i'd almost forget everyone looks.
Plus, there were same case happened these days. I serve the customer this second, blink an eye i'd forget which customer thou. And this seems like searching needle in the middle of the ocean to me.I feel like i'm a destroyer at there when time passes by. I climbed the ladder and i bang myself hardly. And everyone stared me w/ a worry looks * r u okay?*
Another shyt thing. I'm trying to get the stick which is fully made by metal and it's seriously heavy man! Guess what, i accidentally cut myself !!! OMFG!!!! and yesterday, i'm trying to mop the floor. I squeeze the water out or maybe i'm not enough of strength. When i start mop, the floor seems like people splid water . Gosh!!! this is so darn SHYT!!!!
*P/S: had seminar driving today w/ ryan. Oh yea.. waiting for L license now. cioaz!
sick of you
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 || 8:03 PM
Girls usually will be real bad when she's trying to get something that she cherish for while others get it. They will even become more evil than boys. This is one of the weakness bout girls. Or they usually will be quite jealousy.
I had read some random articles which is bout the girl who flirt with this boy. Okay, I'll never say much bout this girl here. Cause she's just a stranger to me and i don't need to judge her at here.
While, I'm wondering. If a girl who flirt with a boy who have a girlfriend, is this a very real bad attitude? In another way, while I'm the girlfriend , for sure I'll scold this bitch! " GET UR ASS OUT OF MY BOYFRIEND!" While the boy seems like acting innocence. *this boy is totally sucks!*
And i totally feel like I'm real bad. Cause this girl seems like in my situation. I don't know which way should I go. I try not to think or even make an action to it. But it doesn't works! I totally pissed off my mind!!! what I've done.
I totally seems like the third party now. Halo.... THIS DOESN'T FEEL NICE... IDIOT!! * i'm not scolding anyone here, thou is me! no offence *
Or maybe i'm over-sensitive. As we just like friends. But this feeling really freaking awkward! We chat like no others business. Everyone keep saying OH no, you guys seems like in a relationship more than friends. And i'd explain millions times! WE'RE JUST FRIENDS! And i treat him just like my pen-pal. I told all my secrets is b'cause we're not seeing each other anymore. And i bet he'll never spread my things out.
Sometimes i do forget that he have a girlfriend. He seems like *happy-go-lucky guy* whereas no one controls him. And this makes me feel like uneasy. In his angle, he'll say that we're just a friend. But at the girlfriend angle, she will be thought of i'm the third party. Hey dude, i just want to make this simple. I don't want to have any misunderstanding in both side. Or maybe she'd know who am i as you told her that we're just friends.
Hell ya... i'm totally tired of those drama.
Okay, i'm brave to say it here now. I'm still miss u or maybe i still have some crush on you. But no matter what, this was just my thought. It will never brings any offence to anyone. Thus, you will never care bout me now or don't even border to read my blog. You seems like busy all days and that makes me feel like i'm so freaking annoyed. Hey dude, i just want to chat or release my mind! Okay fine, i will never force anyone. You like your own way or maybe you think that you just want your girlfriend and that's enough for you.
Seriously, i can't have this kind of jealousy.And this is real bad to me. Anyway, i'm trying to be independent now whereas no friends is going to be my side. And i meant it, i can!
failed =(
Sunday, January 17, 2010 || 8:21 PM
Okay, fine! I'd failed my undang test yesterday. FREAK!!! Seriously, I'm not really read it. Before the day, I'd lost my identical card and of course i don't even border the exercise book or reference book. Thus, I'm not really in a mood. But finally, i found it. I even thought of giving up to sit for this test. Cuz some personal problem had happened to me. The nite, i don't even want to touch the books, i took out my novel, New Moon sitting at the dining room listen to music , enjoying till midnight. Between that, it happened lotsa things. So, to have a good sleep, i went out to bought some panadol. And i felt vomit. But, all those shyt were just some excuses!I mean it.
To the next day, my look seems like fully prepared. I'm not nervous though. But I'm so sleepy. I couldn't open my two panda eyes.I yawned the whole morning. And i sat the second place.While, evonne was quite far away from me. Stupid com is damn slow, can't compared w/ my home pc. I still left lotsa time. So, i double check once.From section C to Section B. By half away, i can't stand this turtle com and click done.........! OUT!!!
*nama*
*no.kp*
** anda telah gagal dalam section bla bla bla.*
and it's 41/50!!!!!!!!!! one marks left. Same as my bro at the past.
So, i went out the class to collect back all the documents. While, Evonne is not finish yet. By the time, i felt rest-less. My mind went blank, and it doesn't appear anything. Text my betties the next, everyone feeling curious. Cause it's damn easy as they said. Evonne came out w/ a smile. And i thought she passed. But it was the opposite side. Damn, she even told me she'd ready to pay 50 bucks to retest. GOSH!!! But her cousin sis criedas she same marks w/ me. LOL
Among my friends, me,evonne and ryan failed. While hue leng passed and damn lan c to me! I'll stay tune for her next round, parking! Let's see what's the next.
So, this friday we have to retest. bless me please. =))
past
Wednesday, January 13, 2010 || 6:13 PM
Life is not a bed of rose as we face trials and tribulations as part and parcel of life. However w/ good friends assisting and encouraging , we can overcome whatever obstacles.A sympathetic ear, wise advice and comradeship will go a long way in establishing a lifelong relationship as friends. In truth, this friends is a gift from the Almighty who willing comes forward as and we need arises
"Caesar's wife should be above suspicion" Indeed a good friend should b' above suspicion at all times. the final words " A friend in need is a friend indeed"
THESE PICTURES REITERATE EVERYTHINGS ;
"Caesar's wife should be above suspicion" Indeed a good friend should b' above suspicion at all times. the final words " A friend in need is a friend indeed"
THESE PICTURES REITERATE EVERYTHINGS ;
when i'm 4 years old >> tadika st.ronan
5 years old ( can't remember what class)
well, i thk i lost the graduation picha for year 6.
Somehow, these are the few years old pichas before i cut my hair short. =))
my only brother.
People said that we're not alike. They even thought that we were born in different mama tummy. hah! He really looks like indian while i looks abit like "amolang" .LOL
first step to Genting Highland =))
ma dad & mom
(years ago)
i love the bunny!!
( i thk it's at the cruise)
my cousin bro;
the Aussie
the ever first i learn how to swim at this pool
and the companionship of friend, sook ying as we're still chilling .
( the head prefect of my secondary skul)
as well as her elder sis.
and the companionship of friend, sook ying as we're still chilling .
( the head prefect of my secondary skul)
as well as her elder sis.
While, the next step will be the primary school. Something surprisingly i get into the first class as we need to sit for exam . Cuz i totally don't know Chinese. My parents never speak to me in chinese cuz they are same w/ me!!! haha!lame rite?! And they are few of my betties too,Des and lc . Where we used to sit together at class and we're also the tallest in class (female) For the males, my best mate will be the "super 4 naugthiest" in class. And they are some funny jokers too. I still remember that we used to eat at class secretly.
While teacher trying to chase us, for sure we will run all over the school. hah!Or we'll hide at somewhere. Oh... yea. I'm a gymnasium at school too. While i quit my ballet when i'm going to be year7. So, i participate the gymnastic. As well as the cheer leading when sports day. Plus, i represent school for basketball comp. And i can tell u, my basketball skill sucks! Cuz mom never allowed me to play. Reason is not to follow my bro play till so damn tall and dark! LAME!!!! Ping pong comp between classes. And i'll never get champion for the 3 years. Damn! 3 years getting the runner-up. The ever first i played badminton for class. Surprisingly, i managed to win. Cuz my enemy was sucks! hah! At least i'm better than me bit. hah! nt bad huh?! Every morning, before class start. For sure, the whole class will play basketball before study as well as my teacher. So, we usually reach school damn early. My form teacher is a basketball trainee and maybe this reason influenced the whole class playing basketball. LOL
Thus, we aim for our UPSR examination.
Last, the graduation trip made lotsa memories to me. OHHH!!! something freaking here. the last day of the trip, my whole room mates doesn't bath including me! Guess what?! the day before the night those boys came in my room. While, they were playing poker cards till midnight. And i was the room monitor.Thus, i can't sleep before they leave. Ding!!! We were all stings!And the bus is going to leave us. Luckily, the boys came to knock our room till we awake!!!And we just have enough time to packed our things. Oh..!! don't spread this out.Shh..........
The secondary life as we desired to get in there. hah! Cuz we'll never get scold if our work not done. This is the differences. Or maybe i'm in government school. Teachers usually busying gave birth! hah! and neglected us. My pri school bags even heavier than my secondary bag. But, it's kinda stressful in secondary life. We need to solve all sort of problems between ur club or society members. And this is the only way we get acknowledgement bout' the ups and downs in life. It's not easy to be the leader. As rumours said " leader don't need to do much. As we're the juniors need to do everything for them" Anyway, they will know the feelings when they b'come the next leader. =)) I even quit my piano when i'm 16. I'd gave up this opportunity. No regrets, cuz i'll continue when i feel that i need it. hah! We fight for PMR & SPM the following years. =)) My chicks, betties,monkeys,bitches etc.
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we used to chillll out together
lucile farewell where she's going back to Manchester =)
Yi-wen, the chick which i knw her since we born! rite?
the celebration for the super fans of tvxq!!
the ever first hanging w/ my monkeys (english tuition)
the shopping kaki
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the singing kaki
the ever first i started to work at Tm Bhd
school's out!!!!!! Hurrayy!
days we spend at sunay lagoon =))
the Librarian Board
hah! i like this.... (dun kill me)
my English team and the preparation of SPM
vietnam trip w/ my 2 bettiesJapan will be the next as we hope so... rite??!!
mrs.choy tuition kaki (account & maths)
my b'day w/ lee chen
the lantern fest 09'
finally.............graduation!!!!! Oh yeah...!
i misss u guyssssss............
christmas o9'
my best ever hot chicks!
and DAMN!! this is once me !
my superb short hair. Guess what??
My mom don't allowed me to have long hair. Reason ; my hair is curly laa, my hair texture is not nice laa... thousand of reason... BLA BLA BLA~
Plus, when my hair seems to be longer, for sure she'll take me to the saloon to cut it off. She will never let me to decide what type of hair should be cut. Yea, she did give me sometimes, But at the end she'll said i'm regret to let you decide. It's so damn awfull! Ding!!!
And I miss the days we spend our time together. Every friday, we'll have tuition at Kasturi. So, mostly i'll have meeting at school before heading to there. Thus, Lekha's driver will fetch us there. Well if we were late, we will never enter the class. We'll chilled at the Old Town cafe to kill our time. Somehow, i miss the jokes from every teachers. Round 8 the class dismiss and the sky getting darker. we'll also crap lots at the lrt. Although we're damn tired but we still enjoy the days we spent together. hah! Okay, thanks for my chicks whoever supports me or helping me whenever i get trouble. And................................... i forget! LOL cuz they did lotsa things to me. Can't remember, it's tooo many!! Erm, Jin who taught me maths before the day we sit for SPM through skype. *advance huh?* p/s: he's damn fierce while teaching ><""
Okay, again i want to thanks to sy, daniel (e'mun bla bla) hah! and su zanne a.s.a.p, who taught me add maths . Hmm... Wenzie, mei ling, celeste,juiin jye * hope the spelling is correct laa* daren, yi-wen who always be my listener. xD! And all my hot chicks who craps w/ me always.
And now, we will never be just like the past. We need to get higher edu to achieve our aim as we may enter different colleges , schools and so on.Oh.. yea, i'm hoping to get in Help college university for the American Degree Programme. I'm just HOPING only!!! not that sure. Pray hard for my result now. hah! stay tune. =))