Peeps!


Esther Zhen

Final is approaching! I just got myself stucked always. I kept telling myself to revise every single minute, but there are like millions of words that I need to memorise. And it make me seriously headache all days. Sometimes I am confuse of what I should revise too. Too stress huh? I hate calculation in my life due to not touching my calculator for about 2 years. I was stunned infront of the calculator on the first day of math's class. No idea, how dumb am I. Trying to do more exercise nowadays, hopefully it is not too late for it. 

I didn't expect much about my result for certain subject. But truly, I hope that at least I got some improvement from last semester. I can't imagine how wonderful is my uni life, but of course same as the result too. I am glad that I knew a bunch of new friends at my second semester. Thanks to AIESEC who approach me and transform me from coward to social. I never regret of my decision though. 

When time pass by, bad things happened too. It seems perfectly at the outlook. But no one really concern 'tabout how it looks like in the inside story. I feel awful. Why people are so mean? I don't get it why am I the one who easily get hurt. I shouldn't put myself into that situation. I try to be strong, I try to be calm. But I couldn't. I am too emotional towards something that I really care about. I may seems strong, but can you feel that how weak am I? Every single thing, I did it myself. I never rely on anyone. I came here to be independent by my own self. Can't deny, friends really help me alot. But only true friend does.

I shouldn't think about all these bullshits again. I need to get my guards up and face this evil life. I hate it but I need to gone through it. All the best in my final. Toodles!