“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional”

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There is several of shitty things that had actually happened in this week. And because of that, I think my tears gland nearly dry up. Both of my eyes swollen so obviously. My looks totally SUCKS. And I-need-to-overcome-it. Gosh!! Just lyk a ghost now. X____x!!

At first. I'm still wondering whether to post it or not to. Cause it's really offended to particular parties that who involved in. I knew it's not good to post something like this. But.


i) THIS IS MY FREAKIN' BLOG, i can post whatever i lyk :)
ii) PERMISSION FROM MY BOYFRIEND. :D
So, done! I'll write this article. I LOVE YOU.

Here's the storyline. He lyk me in the very first. So, i was too blur to know it. And there's no action at all from him to me.Yet, I'm so busy with my previous life that i don't-even-care about his exist. So then, he flirt with another girl which can helps him to forget about my exist. Cause I don't even care about him.

Well, I met back this guy someday. And there he level up he gazed and propose to me.I was so so AFRAID of him. Cause the way he looks at me really seems like staring me. And of course most people won't try to get near him.While, he is so sincere to me.Plus everyone advised me to give a chance to be with him. And there I agreed. YES.

But several things that I really worried about.
i) My parents.
ii) Religion

When time flies by, those worried become diminuendo. And I even love him more and more compared to previous, don't-care attitude. He told me that he deeply madly love me although he is with the girl. He can't forget about me. And yea, he is freakin hella EXCITED when I finally said Yes to him.



Till I finally in the stage of can't-live-without-him. And there he popped out and told me that he still can't forget about the previous girl. But he love me too. Which is a very superb duper good reason. I was so freak out at once. I'm so wanted to burst out my tears.And there, thousand of questions ran through my mind.But I couldn't speak out.Cause I knew if i speak out, there will be an outburst tears. Next, my mind was totally blank at once.



He wants me to leave him as he said that he keeps hurting me .Thus, not to let me hurts once more, he wanted to break out. Between, he is still in love with me. Yet, he said that he'd the choice between me and her . Lastly, he'd chosen me. But meanwhile, he can't forget the girl. It's so complicated and I was too freak out when I was so in love with him. I really can't let him go. As i'm too depend on him. Cause he had stick in my heart.



Lastly, I had given him the second chance with a condition to forget about her and love me the only one. I feels stupid sometimes.Cause this is a very necessary things. But, still there is always a chance. My love seems to be immune. I can't find back those love like previous. I feels so hateful and hatred. And there I thought everything going to end and restart our love.



But what makes a surprise. A forth party who actually popped out and told me that she feels pity to the girl. And hell ya, saying that she's just 14 years old and I'm 18 years old. This really freak me out once. I can't imagine someone told me that.But not to ruin my mind. I just act like what-so-ever! Still having a big-fate-smile towards her. I can't really get what she means of. The girl even told her that she is so fear of me. Hell ya! And yea. She told me that someone called up the girl and scolded her? WTF??!!



5th party comes along. So, i quickly called up the fifth party to know what is actually happened last night.True, he called up the girl just to have a talk and so on. Btw, the guy went to the fifth party's house to express the angle. And yes. I've to thanks to the fifth party who actually giving me strength and supports me.





And there. I was thinking who is actually creating stories that the fifth party scolded her. And I'm the one going to suffered those unpleasant words from a girl who actually younger than me?

Ok. Just forget it. I've no idea. I think she even told the world that she's so AFRAID of me? Cause i stared at her once? What I want to retake my justice is I-NEVER-EVER-STARE-AT-HER. While, of course I-NEVER-EVER-BLAME-HER. Cause I've no relation between me and her. And please.. whatever happened you and her please don't relate to me. Cause I really heard unpleasant words that is really awful to me.





Between.










Forgive & Forget.



Forgive those things you did wrong.

Forget everything that happened.





*p/s: I don't hate her.Cause she always remains a very good image to me. But do have a limit :)
*p/s: I love you always and always. :):)