Lies on my mind.
It's going to be end of October. Yeah, this month of October is a really
horrible,weirdest,scariest,creepiest,Fucking month for me. I bet November will be better for me. As my final exam is coming soon. There is just a week for me to prepare counting from now. I don't think I have full prepare mind to sit for it. I'm still confusing in several parts.Uhmm! I think it's a high time for me to seek for teacher,hoping it's not too late for it.
Looking back my previous diary.I'm really grown up, thoughts are different like past. My scoop is even wider. But there is one thing always remain for me. The four walls in my room will be my listener as I cried to them accompany with my tissues. I'm preventing to spread my voice to others cause It's not necessary although how hard is it. But eventually I'm doing now, I need someone to listen to me no matter who they are. Perhaps it helps in a staccato tune! I hope someday things going to be diminuendo flows.
Do not let your emotions and feelings take over and control what you do. Yes, I'm tring so hard to learn from it and overcome it. Yay, shit always happens towards me! It's just a lesson to learn from it.....
Yeah.Everything gone so bullshit to me at once..!And of course I never felt this way before for my entire life. I thought I'm strong enough and hide everything in my heart. But it's not till I really found out that
I'M NOT AT ALL. I've no other ways to make myself clear. It's the vision that I can see when I open my eyes ...

yeap! Everything comes around goes around ;)
p/s:The greatest disadvantage of a person is not selfish, passionate, brutal, capricious, but a paranoid love do not love themselves.