“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional”

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Okay. 2 days back I'm officially break up!


ellooo... of course, I'm so sick-to-dick! I don't really understand the whole story, I feel so complicated and twisting here and there about those reasons.There have millions of questions ran through my mind. But I think I don't have the rights or chance to get the answer. While, because I love him I choose to let go him to get himself freely and have some precious time. I love him, because I want him to be happy in his life as he choose to leave me.

Evey single seconds,minutes,hours,days that we spent together are unforgettable. And of course I appreciate it. I love being together with him.

We keep our love secretly. And I'm really sick of it. So, after I break up I decided to post everything in mind. I don't care what others think about.Cause that's my own simple mind. Love is blind and I have to admit it when I was falling in love with him.


I know the feeling of Love is so hurful. I rather you hurt my heart than you let go me. You hurts me because you love me, you leave me because you have given up.

But there is no chance of being hurt.
My life getting sucks now. =)


Honestly, I really hate you when you told me that you don't regret and feels sad when you leave me. I have no idea that why you can be so heartless to me. I was wondering is that all fake love in past. But you told me not, you do love me. But why you don't have those feelings of sad at all?


You call me to forget everything and find a better guy.I have to tell you, ain't a girl who can falling in love with other guys. How can i forget it? I can't....and I won't.

I will wait for you patiently. I keep my promise that I will and never flirt to other guys in this 2 years. I don't care what you do with other girls.Of course, I will be jealous of that. But you told me not to hurt me anymore, yet you want to flirt with other girls that really hurts me. But I will be strong and close an eye of what you're going to do soon.

2 years isn't a long period for me. But it's a long period to hold on your love. I've no idea why am i so strongly to have this decison. Or maybe that's the true love that I always love you no matter what happen.

Between. I need to give a damn fake smile to everyone to proove that I'm so hella fine! Honestly, I'm not at all. I'm hardly to be fine. But to let both of us to be flow, I need to do that no matter how hard is it to give a smile on my face.

I can't forget everything
I have sleepless night always
I cry whenver I think about you
I miss you
I want to hold on you
I need you
I cry when I'm posting this article
I have to be strong
I can wait for you
I love you.


You want to focus on your study. I know. So, I'll respect you! :):)

I love a guy who doesn't love me.














I'm so thankful for those who really concern about me. They really give me a warm hand always. Teachers, friends.......that always supports me. But no one can replace it except..........