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Esther Zhen

Just to notify that I'm back in blogging. Sometimes you just need to get yourself in a spare time and sit down to write something that really come out from your mind. Uni life has been a congesting life to me. Well, choose to leave and seek for others will be one of the biggest step that I've took. Ain't easy to leave like that, but sometimes there is no choice, leaving instead. Perhaps, I guess I will get a better life than staying at the place that leave me loves hates moments. It is very grateful for me to get involved in a sociable life whereby from a strange place to a place that I cried while leaving. Although there are a lot of ups and downs going on but I am appreciated that true friends who stay by with me no matter what. Btw, I don't easily hate people who has actually offended me or hurts me. But sometimes people just tend to take things for granted in their life. They think they has the authority in controlling others and just leave without responsible. Well, people used to say live forward without looking back. But sometimes things will not faded so easily in a second hence memories will eventually flash back instantly. Why do people do not admit it what they have done? I'm just an ordinary human who has heart and feelings. Emotionally can take over my control easily. I couldn't judge without realising it but disappointment has been mark as a weakness. I bleed when I fall down, and ain't a machine who can turn on and off whenever who needs. I try to be calm and kind even though how bad things has happened. But the truth literally shattered my heart once again. My humanity has turn off from the day till I seems like I can getting over it but now it seems like I should have turn it off once again. I need a break, I need to be alone, I need to be strong for once! This is what I get paid from the lesson that I've learned. Well, accept the fact and I believe this cruel world. Okay, guard up and don't give a shit or damn on it now. Hi, I'm back to a grey moment. I guess it is good to know earlier than dragging in believing lies like a stupid.